Sunday, July 19, 2009
this is my blog entry which i typed in my phone cos my parents didnt let me use the com yesterday.OMG IM LIKE SUPER PISSED. When i came home form bpp, i asked my parents whether i could play the com before doing hw. NICELY. Then mummy said no, so i was super irritated (im telling you, i have a damn bitchy attitude). and then i went to the room with my moods. and then papa came in and he scolded me, saying that why i was like that and i had all the time in the world to finish it and yada yada wtf. he doesnt even know that i have inferencing exercises. omg. and her dares to say that. so i started crying (as usual) then i got better. but mummy had to spoil it all. i was reading a comic as a form of rst and i accidently knocked over a cup of milk. and it was only A BIT. gosh. and so i went to clean it, and mummy scolded me like shit and said that i had a bad attitude. so i was pissed (again) and then went back to the room to cry (as usual). Parents can be weird. They ask you to clear up the mess on the table and when you accidently spill a drop of something they scold you and say you 'yue bang yue mang.' downright slappable. I think i have an attitude prob. actually i know. a serious one. i think one day i can kill myself out of anger. like seriously. but dont worry. i wont harm people. i will only harm myself. maybe im emo too! i think i shall go for counselling. and anger management courses. next time, when im angry, i shall do the following.
(a) count to 1000
(b) Scream in my pillow
(c) heck care. just cry
(d) bite myself.
i think (c) and (d) are the best. cos crying relieves you of your sorrows and biting yourself helps to like relieve anger. and i cry damn esily. when someone doesnt tell me something then i start crying. inside of me. and when i go home. but never in front of them. told you im a bitch right? whatever. im pissed. dont talk to me.
3-6 pm